-莎士比亚说-

心里多了对一个人的思念与牵挂，
爱的越深，
付出的就越多，
嘴上说着不求回报，
心里依然期待很多，
于是又因爱而累，
越爱反而越寂寞。
莎士比亚说：
对于一个耽于孤寂的人来说，
伴侣并不是一种安慰..

-莉雁仪欣-

莉過留名，

雁过留聲,

仪送雁声,

欣待仪返!

-waiting-

Wanting,
lusting,
to be held,
to be loved,
to feel warmth,to feel your beating heart.
Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,
heartless winds.
Falling into invisible arms
into an abyss of love.
Wishing,
hoping,
that my desires will be filled
my desires of loving warmth.
Wanting to be held,
comforted,
loved.
Dreaming of passionate embraces,
of tender kisses,
loving words,
romantic nights.
Waiting for undying love.

-Waiting-

A lonely heart,
in an empty chest,
everyday,
it beats less and less.
The sun still rises,
but my lifes in gloom,
locked inside,
my torturous room.
If these walls could talk,
they'd tell you of pain,
how everynight tears,
bleed down like rain.
Alone again tonight,
dreaming of that boy,
I know who he is,
and I know he's my world.
This burden of hurt,
too hard to hide,
if I don't find him soon,
I'll die inside.
so if your the boy,
who's made for me,
come this way,
because i'll still be
Waiting for you,
waiting for life to start,
waiting for a love,
to wake my sleeping heart.

反转强眠梦更愁，幽歌好记儿时趣。
　　花香有蝶共春秋，发白无人甘伴侣。
　　　　 谁道相思寂寞居，吾思怎奈无根许。
　　凄凉还道任风狂，泪尽只因听独曲

-长相思-

月如眉，　　
柳如眉，　　
绿细红纤风雨摧，　　
春瘦衣愈肥。　　
心相随，　　
梦相随，　　
旧燕双双绕绣闺，　　
问君何日归。

春意渐浓，桃花红　　

断桥边，烟雨蒙蒙　　

蝶，张开翅膀与花相拥　　

我看见一尾鱼流进梦中　　　　

春燕翻飞，随风吟哦

押着唐韵，渐入佳境　　

用文字验证这些朗润和生动　　

让往事抵达最敏锐的拐角处　　　　

忘却自己是否在梦里梦外　　

默诵你的名字在花朵背后　　

朝阳落日，花落花开　　

都是我绵绵不绝的思念　　

一日三秋，平生不展眉　　

谁能明了？

一个如莲的女子　　

丢了油纸伞站在雨中等你　　　　

我们约定过今生和来世　　

知道吗？

亲爱　　我就是那只燕子　　

为你修行千年的鬼魅狐仙　　

夜深人静，采弦上月华　　

为你，弹拨流水芬芳　　

趁一缕蓝烟掩护　　

潜入你的梦境　　

化一阵轻风缠你绕你　　

让爱，刻骨　　

让爱，铭心

-Blood tears-

One tear,

falling in the moons gaze,

each tear,

a single thought, falling to despair,

one last one may fall tonight,

finally you've noticed,

now drown in my blood...

-Black rose-

A Black Rose,

Glistening in the rain,

A sign, a symbol,

An insignia of loss,

It’s the Flower of Darkness,

Lying in wait on this cold winter night,

It represents the beauty of despair,

The grace of defeat,

The feelings we all find hard to bear,

The millions of people that have all loved and lost,

All behind this flower that holds us aloft,

Within its petals we drown our grief,

With its stem we clutch to what’s left of life,

Within its thorns we spite those who have set us so

And within this dark flower we find our peace,

The power to let go and leave the loved lie,

So with this flower we sign our hearts,

We accept our everlasting love,

And move on,

A Black Rose,

Glistening in the rain,

Ill forever love you, I

ll never lose hope,

But until you come back,

Here’s a Black Rose,

For my love…

You used to call me your angel

Said I was sent straight down from heaven

You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong

I never wanted you to leave

I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you

I miss your smile

And I still shed a tear

Every once in a while

And even though it's different now

You're still here somehow

My heart won't let you go

And I need you to know

I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer

And now I'm living out my dream

How I wish you could see

Everything that's happening for thinking back on the past

It's true that time is flying by too fast

I know you're in a better place

Yeah

But I wish that I could see your face

I know you're where you need to be

Even though it's not here with me

-I miss you-

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting everytime
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their inside
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
Stop this pain tonight?
I miss you.

-Sien-

It's hard to see the pain behind the mask that she is wearing..

Bearing the burden of a secret storm..

Sometimes she wishes she was never born...

-Dispirited Heart-

heart caligation and abandond

flickering signs of death

we'll never grasp with limited minds of mortal people

with vague expressions blank thoughts and

vague thoughts blank expressions

heart engulfs ripples of darkmind enduring the painfull slaughter

doors close never to be explored againc

ontinuing ripples engulf what once engulfed them

-Lost Lives and Tell-Tale Stains-

I will not lie

You've torn my heart from my chest

And I can't believe

I held you higher then the rest

I guess I'm just stupid

For thinking you cared

But I have to admit

What I felt was rare

Now here I am

Pouring my heart onto this blade

Glancing at blood stains

That I have just made

Forever mistakes

Will run through my head

Look at my hands

They're now covered in red

My mind's mental state

Is floating away

Would it even matter

If I ended it today?

Saying goodbye

Because you didn't think with your head
So look what you did

And look where it led...

-^^-

Bitter sweet to taste, there tears,
no longer of pain.
Can't help but wish there states were connected.
Worries about you,
day and night,
why can i not protect you?
So far from touch,
i walk away from the pain but you must be running.
Out of sight,
i miss your voice knowing i lied when i told myself you were only a friend.
How could you be?
You're all i've ever wanted,
all i need,
but you don't even know how great you are.
How could you ever know you inspired this?
The messages, the smilies, nothing more than code for how i feel.
So here it is,
what more can i say?
I cry inside when you're on around.

-In my eyes-

When i close my eyes,all i see is him.When i open my eyes,all i think of is him.He is the one.He has to be.I feel so strong for him.I cant get him off my mind.He has been gone far too long.I miss him.I want him back.I love him with all my heart.Why me?Why now?Why ever?He was the one.He still is the one.It has to be true.Good things go wrong,so better things can happen.But,he is the better in this situation.He's not the good.I dont want to loose him.Not now, not ever.He is the one for me,FOREVER.He is the betterof why the good went wrong.I want him.I need him.I love him with all my heart,and more than anything in the world.All I ask is one more chance.I will prove to you I can do it.I know I can.I will make you feel,the way you use to feel about me.We will love one another,more than ever before.I can't let you go yet.I'm not ready to let you go.I'm not ready to give up.I am ready to love you,more than ever before.

Love u papa & thanks tat u always pei me-This useless nuer~

Thanks to papa.

I started blogging again.

He ask me to pull all my emo feelings into the blog.

It will make me feel better.

Haha.

But.

I really dont know how to blogging.

Ohhwell,

Everything always start from zero~

Lalalarhx.

-Tired of waiting-

And I'm getting tired of waiting

To find out if you're ok

Don't you know how much it hurts?

To be constantly pushed away

I'm crying here for you

It hurts so bad inside

I'm so close to telling you I'm finished

Like you, my soul has died

And things can never be like

How they were before

You've torn it all away

All because you wanted more

And knowing you're out there

Struggling to get by

Knowing I can't do anything

Makes me want to cry

You don't know what you're doing

You're losing me as well,All I ever wanted

Was to help you through this hell

And I need you too

Did that ever cross your mind?

I'm finding it hard to hold on

And not leave you behind

All I asked for was a text

A word to say that you're all right

But you couldn't care less

You get so lost in the night

And I'm here all alone

Waiting for you to talk to me

But angel I'm so close

So close to setting you free

-Tired of waiting-

When I asked you to stop loving me
Didn't you say it was as if asking you to stop breathing?
Seeing me running away
lying to myself
Does it hurt you too much?
Now that I'm changing into someoneyou no longer know
You said that it's like
I'm trying to kill myself
In front of your eyes and the love we shared
I'm sorry but I mean it
I mean everything
Yes
you can say that I am running away
But I've had enough of this love
I might be already tired of waiting
Waiting for nothing

-距离-

距离是否可以增加感情?

今天突然想到这个问题

分隔两地

真的可以增加感情?

我不这么认为

也许有的人分开

会增加思念的感情

但是又有多少人因分隔两地而无缘牵手

就算是曾经海誓山盟的夫妻也经受不住距离的考验...

-Hais-

Hi-5

-Lonely-

It hurts in side this lonely heart
It’s all the pain inside
Pain with no love
Pain with loneliness
Pain Inside
Lost Lonely Empty Confused
Not known where to go
Pain Inside
Please stop the pain inside this
Lonely heart Lonely sprit Lonely soul
I am hurting inside
Needing loveNeeding someone to care
Please stop the pain inside

Pain Inside!

-Sick n tired-

Sick of loving you
Tired of the tears I cry
Im sick of giving you my love
Tired of getting nothing in return
Sick of you dont care about me
Tired of being unable to learn
Im sick of running back to you
Tired of returning hurt
Sick of been ignore
Tired of being treated like idiot
Im sick of living this life
Tired of being blue
Sick of thoughts about giving up
Tired of the stupid things I do
Im so sick of it all
So sick Im going do it
So tired Im going to quit

-Sorrow-

Sorrow sorrow

why have you catch me so

Why have you left me in such a big hole

Sorrow sorrow

when will you leave my soul

and

let my heart breath so

There is nowhere to go

if you keep beating on my heart so

Sorrow sorrow

its time to go

and

let your heart be with your soul

-Dark-

No stars in the sky

One light in the dark

I can't see anything except my face

Nobody heard me

Nobody want to listen

Nobody awake

My voice just lose in the dark

In their worldI

'm not alive

But I'm shouting in the dark

I'm shocking in the dark

I'm hiting in the dark

I wanna swallow the whole dark

I'll rip the dark

With my black knife

I saw a bleeding line

A shining line

It's the dawning of my life

-幸福-

曾经有很长一段时间，
我的情绪非常的低落，
体验不到生活的乐趣，
也不知道人生的意义是什么，
每天就是混混噩噩活着，
如行尸走肉一般。
独自一个人时我常常会问自己：
我过的好吗？
我生活的快乐吗？
我是幸福的吗？
为什么我总是没有幸福的感觉呢？
究竟怎样的人?

-幸福-

我爱你 为了你的幸福我愿意放弃一切-包括你
失望
有时候也是一种幸福
因为有所期待所以才会失望
因为有爱，
才会有期待
所以纵使失望
也是一种幸福，
虽然这种幸福有点痛
世上最凄绝的距离是两个人本来距离很远
互不相识
忽然有一天
他们相识>相爱>距离

-静静地想你-

今夜
我怅坐一隅静静地想你
想知道你在做什么
想知道你有没有在想我
想知道当你凝视远方的时候你的眼前是否划过我的身影
想知道当你走进甜美的梦乡是否看到我在梦的路口等你
我喜欢静静地坐在这里
想你虽然我不知道这样静静地
想一个人对方是否能真切地感受到
如果你常常会有一种莫名的心动
你是否知道
这是因为我在远方静静地想你？
就这么静静地想你
静静地在心底呼唤着你
我真的很想在这宁静的夜空里呼唤你
尽管我知道漆黑的夜无法将我的心声传得很远
但我总觉得无论多远你一定能够听到
就这么静静地想你在这个平淡的夜晚
因为想起了你
这个夜晚变得美丽而忧郁
我想你
想为你点亮一盏桔色的灯
静静守候着你疲惫的归来
想为你递上一杯温热的香茗
缓缓驱散你脸上的倦容
想用我温柔纤细的手指轻轻抚平你眼角的皱纹
想用我轻柔温情的呢喃抚慰你驿动不安的心
灵然后静静地看着你....

-夜-

满天的星斗　　

在黑暗中闪烁　

　你的平凡　

　使我着魔似的　

　　　想找回曾经的你　

　望你开心的笑　

　奢望和你一起回到从前

　　辗转反侧　

　　　你的苦笑　　

像刺刀在我心里狠狠的宰　

　我心如刀割　

　寂寞在漫漫长夜中苏醒

-爱没了-

一种情感

一种孤独

一种幸福

一种温暖

远去的你

即不能

也无法黯淡我对你凝视的眸子

没了爱

没了情

没了喜

没了乐

没了红

没了绿

没了色彩

也快没了生命

只有痛

只有泪

只有苦

只有寂寞

也只有那孤独的陪伴

任何一种爱

都是要付出代价的

心在滴滴的流血

当那么多的歌

那么多的画面

那么多次的挽回

那么多的语言

那么多的信息

那么多的那么多　　

只有我才懂的痛　

而你，

始终无言

沉默

　

没了爱　　

和死亡是那样的接近...